Hello twitter and facebook friends,for today I thought I would share a little of the real me:) You all see me silly Ben and Tennant devotion and craziness but I wanted to tell you all about a very special person to me. My dad.
DEN!
Den has never has never been a traditional dad or person.He grew up in a small town with quite a few siblings and a mom with her share of personals issues.Dad like so many has his Dad leave and has been through alot through that whole process.He also has the unfortunate pleasure of watching his mother unravel to a point that she was not longer able to care for herself at a very young age due to a tragic illness. It really tore his family apart, to this day there is just not that supportive closeness of what you call a family.Dad did alot of self raising and I personally think did a damn good job with all that was going on around him.My dad is a very bright man and could have gone very far ,people tend to gravitate towards him.He has an ability to relate to people,especially people that society has tended to shun. Dad does not judge. Sadly dad was not able to pursue that higher education that he really should have as my father had a very lower number during the era of Vietnam.But he did not let that crush him he was mart and enlisted in the Navy to protect himself in a war he had no choice. He went through hell over there and acquired a few demons over there. but he made it back ,thank god because yeah I am here! Hew picked him self up.He had just my mother NO money in CA(she was pregnant with me) but they were happy. That just gives you an idea of dad. He has had so many challenges in life.I will respect him and not list them all here but he always came out with humility and a making me and my sister and mother first.He is just a man and has made many mistakes but always admitted fault and taught us that you can be strong and come back from ANYTHING. As a family we have been through it hen I was 8 1/2 perhaps even closer to nine months pregnant we lost my father.It was on Mother's Day.He Coded at home.My mother had to start CPR and they were able to shock him to a stable rhythm but he has what is know as Sick Sinus Syndrome, he must has a pacemaker with a defibrillator to live.It was devastating to us as all he is our rock..Recently I have been diagnosed with a genetic disease Ehlers Danlos Syndrome and he has been there every step of the way .Given what little they have freely and even more all the unconditional love one could ever ask for, when I considered really ending it all my dad was there to pull me out.
Why am I writing this sweet love letter...one word GUILT...my father has worshiped to the alter of Keith Richards forever. Rolling Stones...is the music of my life....it is part of every major event...I feel as if Keith Richards is part of our family...I know more of him than most of my father's family. Keith has been such an inspiration to my father from Vietnam to today...survivors..each in their own way.
I know this tour will be their last. My dad has given so much to me, I just want to see him smile and scream Keith one more time, to know I gave back for all the kindness and support he gave me but I need help....I know a kickstarter is for more big major life things...so friends help me....how do I get my beloved Den....to see Keith one last time...complete the circle.....the guilt I feel for having the disease and not just being able to work overtime to get the money is crush ...I take and they do...I feel that the daughter that just drains...I so want to give back....I am tryi g very hard on ebay with what I have...but my health has not allowed me to get back to the "garage sort" yet...so friends please I beg for suggestions...I want so very much to get him there.....I detest asking for help....suggestion but hell I need them and to see that look in his eyes is worth asking for suggestions:) I just so much want to give back for all he has given me. I want so much to see his face light up...and here that silly "KEITH" scream so badly....I hate my self for this disease that I can not give it to him....so not to be redundant ...all ideas suggested:)
I feel good sharing a bit of the real me with you all:)
DEN!
Den has never has never been a traditional dad or person.He grew up in a small town with quite a few siblings and a mom with her share of personals issues.Dad like so many has his Dad leave and has been through alot through that whole process.He also has the unfortunate pleasure of watching his mother unravel to a point that she was not longer able to care for herself at a very young age due to a tragic illness. It really tore his family apart, to this day there is just not that supportive closeness of what you call a family.Dad did alot of self raising and I personally think did a damn good job with all that was going on around him.My dad is a very bright man and could have gone very far ,people tend to gravitate towards him.He has an ability to relate to people,especially people that society has tended to shun. Dad does not judge. Sadly dad was not able to pursue that higher education that he really should have as my father had a very lower number during the era of Vietnam.But he did not let that crush him he was mart and enlisted in the Navy to protect himself in a war he had no choice. He went through hell over there and acquired a few demons over there. but he made it back ,thank god because yeah I am here! Hew picked him self up.He had just my mother NO money in CA(she was pregnant with me) but they were happy. That just gives you an idea of dad. He has had so many challenges in life.I will respect him and not list them all here but he always came out with humility and a making me and my sister and mother first.He is just a man and has made many mistakes but always admitted fault and taught us that you can be strong and come back from ANYTHING. As a family we have been through it hen I was 8 1/2 perhaps even closer to nine months pregnant we lost my father.It was on Mother's Day.He Coded at home.My mother had to start CPR and they were able to shock him to a stable rhythm but he has what is know as Sick Sinus Syndrome, he must has a pacemaker with a defibrillator to live.It was devastating to us as all he is our rock..Recently I have been diagnosed with a genetic disease Ehlers Danlos Syndrome and he has been there every step of the way .Given what little they have freely and even more all the unconditional love one could ever ask for, when I considered really ending it all my dad was there to pull me out.
Why am I writing this sweet love letter...one word GUILT...my father has worshiped to the alter of Keith Richards forever. Rolling Stones...is the music of my life....it is part of every major event...I feel as if Keith Richards is part of our family...I know more of him than most of my father's family. Keith has been such an inspiration to my father from Vietnam to today...survivors..each in their own way.
I know this tour will be their last. My dad has given so much to me, I just want to see him smile and scream Keith one more time, to know I gave back for all the kindness and support he gave me but I need help....I know a kickstarter is for more big major life things...so friends help me....how do I get my beloved Den....to see Keith one last time...complete the circle.....the guilt I feel for having the disease and not just being able to work overtime to get the money is crush ...I take and they do...I feel that the daughter that just drains...I so want to give back....I am tryi g very hard on ebay with what I have...but my health has not allowed me to get back to the "garage sort" yet...so friends please I beg for suggestions...I want so very much to get him there.....I detest asking for help....suggestion but hell I need them and to see that look in his eyes is worth asking for suggestions:) I just so much want to give back for all he has given me. I want so much to see his face light up...and here that silly "KEITH" scream so badly....I hate my self for this disease that I can not give it to him....so not to be redundant ...all ideas suggested:)
I feel good sharing a bit of the real me with you all:)
